Death and bewilderment...

No, no the baby is fine! I'm talking about something else here.

Gosh, what a day today has been - one of those delightful days where nothing's gone quite right, but then nothing's gone completely wrong either: kind of odd! I think I made it better in the end though, by making a couple of decisions.

One, I left a site I've been visiting for almost a year (some of you know me from there I think) - I've disabled my link from that site, so I cannot be accused of being mean about it. I've made some wonderful friends there, none of whom I hope to leave behind so I've sent everyone I can think of a message: the word can get around from there, hopefully. I think I have the right to do that, don't I? You'd think so, wouldn't you - others do not, however.

So here I am, talking on my completely un-moderated blog (apart from by me!) which is wonderful. I can say whatever I like! Most of what I say is meant to be supportive, of course. I have a few opinions here and there - doesn't everyone? Isn't that what gives us our uniqueness? Having thoughts about things? Hmmm...

So that's done with - but my friends are my friends and I will be sending goodies!

There's another site I just can't frequent any more either. Two people there now have chosen to abort babies with Downs Syndrome... Oh my gosh. I cannot imagine wanting to make that decision. I know people with Downs, and to look at them and think "you shouldn't have been born" is just sickening and nonsensical to me. But here we go again today, another amnio, another diagnosis of Downs and another abortion. I hopefully am free to say on this blog that I think that decision is barbaric. I really feel in my gut that it's awful. I've lost a baby and can understand another person terminating for a condition that wouldn't be life compatible but Downs?

It makes me feel sick, the thought of purposefully destroying a life because of a diagnosis of Downs. Heck, there are people - many people - who would adopt a child with Downs deliberately. But to have one killed in the second trimester? I cannot agree. I just cannot. Plus there's a good friend of mine in the same due date club who lost her son to Downs complications last year and to have someone else aborting... Wow, I cannot imagine how she feels every single time she reads one of those posts.

I just don't get taking a little person who's kicking you and who could live, and have a job, have children, everything, so late... How could I feel a little person kick inside me and make a decision to have them destroyed? I just don't understand. Coming from where I'm from, I don't think I can ever understand that.

So, I'm all for political correctness and letting people do whatever, but I can't stay around that energy - it's so black and filled with the promise of a dark future. So I've kinda vacated my due date clubs now. Ah well. I am still due and the life in me is very active, and I am so thankful.

Hopefully though everyone will keep in touch here and on Facebook and on the email - my buddies are the most important people to me. I don't really have time to be dinging about on forums anyway - I'm SO busy with work right now, it's really crazy!

That's it for now. Chugging away, nearly 18 weeks! I will update with a new pregnancy pic on Monday!