tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682731971149584421.post6712705383340448113..comments2023-04-12T08:33:53.129-05:00Comments on Opus Angara: Bella...my heart incarnate...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14348803725518461853noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682731971149584421.post-44436388467312152972010-04-12T16:51:52.472-05:002010-04-12T16:51:52.472-05:00Oh Jay. I'm *exactly* the same with Toby. I so...Oh Jay. I'm *exactly* the same with Toby. I sometimes just sit during his naps with my hand on his chest. When I wear him in the wrap, I lift him up to my face sometimes just to smell and feel his sweet milky breath. I'm so frightened of one day NOT sensing it. I do try to contain it and mostly I succeed. I try to feel the joy rather than the fear but well ... yes ... you know.<br /><br />And Bella and Toby are little peas on a pod. He loves his thumb and ADORES lights. I mean seriously. He has a major love affair going in with our living room light!! Anyway, she is ADORABLE. Completely and utterly adorable.<br /><br />Anyway, I will be thinking of you and wishing you light in your current situation. I truly hope that whatever it is that is causing you such stress and heartache is resolved soon.<br /><br />P.S. Did you get the little gift I sent?<br /><br />love and light to you, mama.Fireflyforeverhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15290560217994184778noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682731971149584421.post-74373416054406152362010-04-11T13:06:23.722-05:002010-04-11T13:06:23.722-05:00Hello Margaret! :)
I think actually, that many of...Hello Margaret! :)<br /><br />I think actually, that many of the tirednesses and woes I have at the moment are because of some other rather major issues going on (which I can't really write about here). I am feeling sad, yes, at the moment - but not depressed thank goodness. I had terrible depression as a teen and had counseling about ten years ago for that. Luckily it didn't return after I was about twenty, though of course I've had some very sad times. <br /><br />Sometimes thankfully while things may be tough in other arenas and cause terrible tiredness and the feeling of being weak and just without any further resources, depression doesn't take hold. What I certainly am is extremely tired. Mentally and physically I am shot - I ache. I need a holiday. <br /><br />But, hopefully very soon, things will be better. Please don't worry, my friend - I'm not drowning in a pit of despair, trust me - I will however reveal that I am going through something very tough outside the realm of this blog that is just putting rather a lot of extra pressure on me. I am so grateful that you care though - you're so sweet. XXXXXAnonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14348803725518461853noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2682731971149584421.post-2362414858004032602010-04-11T12:38:00.831-05:002010-04-11T12:38:00.831-05:00Jay she is simply gorgeous and I am so glad for yo...Jay she is simply gorgeous and I am so glad for your happiness in mohering her. <br /><br />In regards to the checking...When we almost lost our first daughter to abruption and she was in the special care nursery for two weeks before coming home, I somehow became convinced I would lose her. I too checked, multiple times a night to make sure she was still breathing. My fear of losing her became an obsession and I developed OCD, checking her so many times a night, there were times I would open my eyes and find myself standing over her crib. Please be aware that this can be a symptom of post partum depression. I never realized I had post partum until our daughter was ten months old and I was in complete fear of something happening to her. I KNOW you have much to fear after losing Josie, I just want you to know that I care and am just asking you to be aware that the constant checking is only temporarily aleviating your anxiety. Take care of yourself...you are a beautiful mother. Hugsmargarethttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16494588299838654564noreply@blogger.com